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8月22日 letting goI am trying so hard to find some inner peace. I need to get to the "indifferent" phase of breaking up. I am often (still!) consumed with an anger (even hatred) for the X. I try so hard to just let it go, but he CONSTANTLY proves me wrong when I think he can't disappoint me further. Sigh. I want to be happier, I want this small matter to be finished. I want indifference. I will be serene. I will be happy for myself. I will be positive. I still have my health, right?! 8月21日 Day 2Day 2 was a better, but still nervewrecking. Jeez, it took me 4 tries to spell that word and I think it's still wrong.
Daily issues: the pie wants to take diving lessons, but they are spendy. The X states he cannot afford them (he is supporting another child-candi cantalopes you know). He makes twice as much as me, he should cough up the dough. I told him if he can't the pie will have to resign herself to hanging with her hood friends at the pool hall smoking crack and drinking. I think the state will pay the rehab bill for minors, he won't be obligated.
One of my last week dates is really on my list. No calls and he's still searching. Bugger. 8月20日 School days, school daze...Today I started my year of clinicals. Oy, am I tired. I started at the VA. I love, love, love being there first. Mr. B is my clinical instructor there and talk about a man with infinite patience. Wowsers. I'd hate to teach me, I'm clearly an idiot. So, I was at the VA from 8 to 330, rushed home to talk to the insurance company for 45 minutes, talk to the scrubs company about my late incoming scrubs, pick up the pie to take to get her schedule and pictures taken. We then rushed home to feed the troops so we could get her to violin at 7. Whew. Thankfully not all days will be such. I still need to go grocery shopping or else I'll need the husky scrubs. On a different note....I am so crazy tense I positively need to get some action. I attempted to coax the pup into a quick sprint, but he is "unavailable" this evening. What good is an FB if he won't come and do his duty? I feel as tight as a guitar string, ready to break at any moment. Speaking of the pup's unavailability...on Friday I tried to tempt him in to a secluded lockable place in the HP building, but he wouldn't do it. You would think the boy was 40, not 21. D keeps the pressure up to be my FB, but I don't trust him. Besides he has a girlfriend. While I don't want a boyfriend, I need to know the two of us are being "exclusive" in our FB'dness.
The pie wants to try diving this year, but I can't really afford it myself. Hopefully the X will come through with the $$$$$$$$. Side note: went on 4 dates with 3 different men last week. One was a complete no, one was a meh, the last one (I went out twice with him, the Persian) I'm still a bit undecided about. We'll see..... 8月11日 Road Trip!I picked the kid up from science camp and we went on a trip to Wisconsin!
NEXT!
ONWARD!
NORTH BOUND!
I enjoyed passing the Normal Community College...wonder about the abnormal one myself....
The pie asked me what a wind farm was. I have to admit, the name is a bit off putting....
We had a lovely time, a bit stressful for me, but loverly nonetheless. The pie had 8 chippys around her it was amazing. She was a peach in the car too. Of course, she watched movies the whole time...but still. She could've been a pill. |
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