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February 24 No actually, not dead...Yes, it has been a million years (or so it seems) since there has been an update. Lots to show and tell. Christmas came and Santa gave me a new camera. I'm still having issues with it but here are some of my arty trials... Reindeer candle holder
Cooper the saddest yellow dog ever
Javabean the brown dog and a touch of Gus the little black dog
Santa also brought me a teapot. Not a kettle mind you, a pot. With tea. Good tea.
Then came January and our trip to Disney World. It was the Pie, B and me. We stayed at the Polynesian. Best time ever. Other than pushing B around in a wheelchair. Then there was when Pie peed her pants...fun for all. Here are some highlights.
Cinderella's Castle for the holidays...lurvly.
Pie and I before the luau.
More pictures as I get'em. January 05 prep work sucksWe are heading to the Wide World of Disney on Sunday. Let the Whooping begin! Today, being the saturday before we leave, is the ass of the trip. So much to do so little time to do it. Dogs to the kennel, laundry, those pesky holiday decorations must be put away, go get cash. I need a personal assistant so I can do the important stuff. Like sleep. December 31 Out with the old...in with the new....I've never been one to sent any sort of store in the new year, never one to set resolutions to make or break. That being said, a new year is coming. Not just in the calendar sense either. I have decided to set myself some resolutions. I will stick with them. 2008 will be better. (to be perfectly honest, and a bit pessimistic, it can ONLY get better at this point!) 'Nuff w/the negativity on with the list! 2008 Life Changes 1. Laziness and procrastination will not be the norms 2. I will walk the dogs at least 4 times a week, no matter what 3. I will take one house project a weekend and finish it 4. I will lose 30 pounds and keep it off 5. I will take my vitamins 6. I will study on a daily basis regardless of my tiredness 7. TV is a reward for finishing my daily musts 8. I will vacuum every other day 9. If I notice something to be done, I will do it 10. We will only have take out or eat out once a week 11. I will not spend money I do not have 12. I will not let bitterness rule my life 13. I will make sure we attend church at least 3 times a month regardless 14. I will workout with weights 4 times a week 15. I will use the elliptical 5 times a week for at least 15 minutes Big changes coming down the pipe looks like, eh? It will be a very HAPPY new year I know it. Happy New Year's to you and yours, don't forget your black-eyed peas tomorrow! December 29 the end of the yearsigh...post was lost, not interested in typing it again. Happy New Year. December 24 So this is Christmas...A merry one to you and yours. I am laid low with sadness. It will all be better soon. I know it will. May the beauty of the season and the joy of family warm your heart. Happy Holidays. December 16 Only one to go....Finished my finals on Friday. The semester is finally finished, one semester to go and then graduation! I'm actually scared to graduate and try to find a job. I guess it has to do with change. Moving to Missouri was a huge change, divorce was a crippling change, school was a terrifying change, so now getting out of school will be yet another change. I can do it. Certainly. Winter has officially shown up in mid-MO. We have had a couple of lovely snow falls. Dogs have been dancing, coming in the house smelling outdoor sweet with snow packed between their toes.
This semester has been full. The kid and I attended football games with granny and pop, we went on the MidMo Brr ride from Columbia to Rocheport, 13 miles on the trail. We had a great time but boy did our booties hurt! The weekend of my birthday we helped during the XCX-which was an extreme cross country race. Trryin to get out and about, make friends and all that. In January the kid, B and I are going to Disney World for a week. Very exciting. Goodness knows I need a vacation.
The Persian is still in the picture so far. I'm still trying to decide about that situation Here are a number of negatives, some nice positives too but maybe not the positives I need.....certainly keep you posted. September 11 violence and ice creamToday was a tough day. Clinicals=tough; X emails=super tough; period coming=making everything including breathing tough. The Persian called me, asked if I'd been crying. I refused to go into it. He sits quietly on the phone for a moment and says the most perfect thing, "Would you like me to beat someone up for you?". I think he gets it. August 22 letting goI am trying so hard to find some inner peace. I need to get to the "indifferent" phase of breaking up. I am often (still!) consumed with an anger (even hatred) for the X. I try so hard to just let it go, but he CONSTANTLY proves me wrong when I think he can't disappoint me further. Sigh. I want to be happier, I want this small matter to be finished. I want indifference. I will be serene. I will be happy for myself. I will be positive. I still have my health, right?! August 21 Day 2Day 2 was a better, but still nervewrecking. Jeez, it took me 4 tries to spell that word and I think it's still wrong.
Daily issues: the pie wants to take diving lessons, but they are spendy. The X states he cannot afford them (he is supporting another child-candi cantalopes you know). He makes twice as much as me, he should cough up the dough. I told him if he can't the pie will have to resign herself to hanging with her hood friends at the pool hall smoking crack and drinking. I think the state will pay the rehab bill for minors, he won't be obligated.
One of my last week dates is really on my list. No calls and he's still searching. Bugger. August 20 School days, school daze...Today I started my year of clinicals. Oy, am I tired. I started at the VA. I love, love, love being there first. Mr. B is my clinical instructor there and talk about a man with infinite patience. Wowsers. I'd hate to teach me, I'm clearly an idiot. So, I was at the VA from 8 to 330, rushed home to talk to the insurance company for 45 minutes, talk to the scrubs company about my late incoming scrubs, pick up the pie to take to get her schedule and pictures taken. We then rushed home to feed the troops so we could get her to violin at 7. Whew. Thankfully not all days will be such. I still need to go grocery shopping or else I'll need the husky scrubs. On a different note....I am so crazy tense I positively need to get some action. I attempted to coax the pup into a quick sprint, but he is "unavailable" this evening. What good is an FB if he won't come and do his duty? I feel as tight as a guitar string, ready to break at any moment. Speaking of the pup's unavailability...on Friday I tried to tempt him in to a secluded lockable place in the HP building, but he wouldn't do it. You would think the boy was 40, not 21. D keeps the pressure up to be my FB, but I don't trust him. Besides he has a girlfriend. While I don't want a boyfriend, I need to know the two of us are being "exclusive" in our FB'dness.
The pie wants to try diving this year, but I can't really afford it myself. Hopefully the X will come through with the $$$$$$$$. Side note: went on 4 dates with 3 different men last week. One was a complete no, one was a meh, the last one (I went out twice with him, the Persian) I'm still a bit undecided about. We'll see..... August 11 Road Trip!I picked the kid up from science camp and we went on a trip to Wisconsin!
NEXT!
ONWARD!
NORTH BOUND!
I enjoyed passing the Normal Community College...wonder about the abnormal one myself....
The pie asked me what a wind farm was. I have to admit, the name is a bit off putting....
We had a lovely time, a bit stressful for me, but loverly nonetheless. The pie had 8 chippys around her it was amazing. She was a peach in the car too. Of course, she watched movies the whole time...but still. She could've been a pill. July 27 Not just himNot only is HE moving to Nashville in December, hes taking the new girlfriend too. WTF?!
EDIT: Found out yet more info: she's younger than I thought (23-ish), not in grad school-has only taken some college classes, she has quit the bar and is supposed to be "looking" for another job. So, that means he's supporting her. Glads! I have lots to talk to the shrinky dink about! What a dick. Oh, yeah, not moving in Dec, back to May again... July 19 so little time...Today I learned he moved in with his girlfriend. Four months ago we were going to be a family again and now he has moved in with his girlfriend. I also learned he is moving in December to Nashville. I found that out from his mom. Not from him, god no, not from him. I have been completely blindsided and I am so angry and disappointed. I feel sick. Four months ago. Four fucking months ago we were a family again. July 17 I wish I had heard this before...Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. ~Author Unknown oh my. June 06 Summer!Summer is here! I've started working at the hospital mornings, today was the last day of school for the kid, all is looking well. I've been royally pissed off at the boy lately and I'm sick and tired of it. My disappointment and anger seem to know no bounds. When will this be over? The kid went to see him over Memorial weekend....she flew there for the first time by herself which was very scary for me. Anyway, as Houston was having HUGE storms, her flight from KC was delay and as they do not want minors to be stranded, they wouldn't let her take off on Friday. I had to drive back to Columbia Friday night to return again at 7 AM Saturday morning (I had to get up at 3:30 to get there). She got to TX around 1 on Saturday and returned on Monday. The anger comes from the boy telling me how he felt his relationship with the kid was floundering and he needed to spend more time with her, which is why we started the unaccompanied flights. That being said, the one full day she was there, they spent the ENTIRE day with his new girlfriend. Nice. World's Best Dad right there. May 29 ....I want you not to matter to me any more. I want your actions to no longer matter to me. And for once, I want to be wrong about you and I want to not be disappointed in what you do. May 24 OUCH!The doctor mentioned I would really be sore 3-4 days after surgery. Wowsers, he wasn't kiddin'. Owwie, owie, owie. Sleeping hurts, eatting is not happening, drinking is pure torture. Oh woe is me, oh woe, oh woe! May 19 Ah the tasty drugs....The tonsillectomy appears to be a success. I'm sore and talking is a burden as is eatting mushy foods. Only one day post op and I'm already sick of soup and pudding pops. The up side is the weather is very nice and we haven't had to turn on the AC. I did look down my throat and it quite clearly looks like I'm missing a huge portion of my flesh. No wonder its ouchy. I do wish I could've seen my tonsils they removed. The surgeon told the mom they were super fibrous due to my many infections and took more time to get out. I hear I will be wonderfully surprised how much I DON't get sick. Yippee! May 16 Pre-op out of the way, now to soft foodMy tonsils are due to be excised this Friday. Last fall during the snow storm of ought-six, I had my SECOND tonsillar abscess. Which landed me in the ER three times in as many days. I was pretty bad off and have since decided to have the offenders torched out o' my mouth. Monday I went for my preop visit and blood drain. I'm scheduled for 6 AM, which is painful, but I do get to come in my jammies, always a bonus. My mom is coming for the weekend to take care of me, the pie and the zoo. She is here to mostly make sure I DON'T BLEED TO DEATH. For the first 24 hours I get pain medications and ice cold liquids. Then two weeks of SOFT foods. I have to figure out what sorts of soft foods I'll be interested in. What is a soft non-sweet food? Mostly complex carbs that's what, ie. oatmeal, mashed potatoes. Anyone have any other ideas? something with a bit of protein? |
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